Anyone seen my Motivation?

"Never trade what you want the most... for what you want at the moment" – John Defendis

That seems like a pretty simple concept doesn’t it? I’ve posted this as my Facebook status dozens of times. I’ve used it in my online journal almost that many. Yet I can’t seem to live it.

It has been 50.5 weeks since I last competed. During this time I got lazy and gained approximately 25 pounds from my pre-water drop stage weight. Sure, some of it is new muscle but a lot of it is due to rediscovering my love for junk food and high calorie beverages – Pringles and Blue Moon anyone? Sitting on my ass became far easier than going to the gym and morning cardio became a distant memory. Sure, when I go I kill it and my back and shoulders have definitely grown. But so has my gut and ass. Sadly they have grown more. A lot more.

So what really happened? It is like I said, I got lazy. With no set goal, what I could do today was put off until tomorrow and we all know tomorrow never comes. And really, who doesn’t love Pringles and Blue Moon? Cheeze Its? Caramel Macchiato? Mexican food? Mac n cheese? Wine? You see where this is going? Early mornings became a thing of the distant past. Lifting at night became sitting in front of the computer (with a snack of course).

And know what happens when you get lazy? It gets really hard to get unlazy. The mouth says I want my abs back, I want to get back in last winter’s clothing before what they call Fall here in hell (another topic for another post) and the blubber really needs to go. Now. Most of the brain agrees. Except for the part that stops the crap from passing my lips and removes my ass from the couch. The part called Motivation.

So what next? Keep plodding along until I get it all figured out. I have no excuse other than laziness. My current diet plan is awesome – no nasty fish, pick and chose what I want from a long list of foods – sure, somehow Pringles, Blue Moon and wine got left off the list but really, do I need them for the 6 weeks it would take to knock off 10 pounds? Nope, I really don’t. I can hit the gym right after work and still be in the house by 5:30 – long before I ever left the office for many years. My schedule is the last thing I need to worry about these days – I’ve never had this much free time in my life.

I’ve got a lot of theories about what happened to my motivation, but that too is another post. Right now I have to lay on the floor and get overrun by bullies.